Lonely but not alone

So I have no job no friends and nothing to do.....its Michigan and it is winter so what can I expect really, I am depressed. The things I want I have to weight for, so instead of living life I am rotting away in my house waiting for my insurance my school whatever.....I am not alone I have a boyfriend and two small children. However the boyfriend works 45 hours a week, then also helps everyone else out when he is free. My kids are 5 and 2 and I love them love spending time with them it would just be nice to be around people my own age sometime. And the only 2 things I have to look forward to are things that take a year and then three years. So I guess I will sit here a few years and rot away, who knows maybe Ill die by then. Why cant something I want just happen for once or not be so alone or stuck around kids all day everyday never any time to be just an adult. The only time I get out is to go to the doctors.